Today marks the day I would have been due with my second child if Trisomy 18 hadn't thrown a wrench into things. What an awful experience to have when you are just letting yourself think that it's ok to tell everyone that you're pregnant again. We had really wanted that second child but this happened after multiple miscarriages and I just couldn't stomach the thought of trying again. It was a horrible time for us but we got through it with the support of family and friends. So thank you, any of you that are reading, for the hugs, kind words and gifts of comfort food.
I'm only putting this out there in the hopes that anyone reading feels like they are not alone if they have been or are going through this. It's a tough process and one that not many people talk about.
On the other hand, it's funny how people think nothing of asking if our son is an only child or if we'll have more. They have no idea how much that question hurts, and how much it hurts that he'll never have a sibling. I think we'll always feel like there's a little hole in our hearts where that baby would have been.
Sorry. I can't imagine this is a good day. It's one more thing I just don't get about life. As I get older, that list gets longer.
ReplyDeleteBig Big Hug your way.
ReplyDeleteI second that big big hug from Laura.
ReplyDeletePerfect photo for your thoughts. As mine are with you & yours tonight. XOXOXO
ReplyDeleteI know exactly what you mean in this post. I hate having to answer the question do you have kids because technically I do but I don't want to say yes and have them ask well then where are they and I don't want to say no because that's like denying I ever gave birth to her. It's awkward.
ReplyDeleteAnd I hate having to explain why I don't have kids and can't have kids....
so I know what ya mean. Sending love your way Christy.
Thanks everyone. Holli, my heart goes out to you. I can't imagine what you must have gone through. Life really seems unfair.
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